“In my distress I cried unto the Lord; to my God I cried for help. From His Temple he heard my voice; my cry reached His ears.” (Psalm 18:6 NIV)
Recently, while attending the Roaring Lambs writers conference in Plano, Texas, the first speaker, Debbie Stewart talked to us about Why Do We Write. She made the comment, “People can’t put words to the pain they’re in. They’re looking for someone to pull along side them.” I could so relate because for many years I struggled with a lot of emotional pain I personally couldn’t put into words and I feared doing so with anyone. I couldn’t go to counseling because I feared authority figures. After all, the authority figures were the ones I felt wounded by the most. So I stuffed everything in my emotional suitcase and I dragged it everywhere I went. Till someone “bumped” into me, then the feelings of hurt and anger would arise, and come out in my verbiage. Then one day, I learned at a counseling training, deep hurt is often at the root of anger and it must be dealt with at a deeper level.
My parents never intended to hurt their children, but they reacted out of their own pain because they had no idea what to do with it. And over the years, I’ve had to learn how to take what happened that hurt me and dump my pain at the foot of the cross. He has taught me that Jesus is our High Priest and sees every tear, every fear, and the pain that no know sees.
Often in our fast paced world and the concern for self, people can miss what’s going on with someone else. And unless it’s brought to someone’s attention, we can begin to believe no one cares. However, He is there, always watching and waiting for us to call unto Him. When we call, He has a way of pointing us to the right passage of scripture or to take us to the right place or to the person to whom we are to speak.
I once heard fine means, “Feelings inside never expressed.” Sometimes what we feel on the inside, we may not be able to express. And He wants us to tell Him or He may use someone else to draw it out of us. And when we are able to talk things out, He often gives us a new perspective.
So today, if are finding yourself alone, suffering, may I remind You that He stands with you. And He knows exactly what you need, regardless of what the enemy tells you. If you will but listen for His still, small voice He will meet you in your deep places where no one sees. I pray He does. And if need be, get up your courage and find someone who you might trust to open your heart to. I know it can be scary, because sometimes it still is for me, but when you do you’ll find it easier each time.